Tuesday, February 26, 2008
3 weeks of bliss, and it all comes up to this. A screeching halt to what has been one of the best periods of a damned life in this college. The past weeks have I've been so happy with Ainaa by my side, that whatever this college could serve at me,I went on smiling away like a retard.
Well, its all come to a dead stop. By that, I do mean DEAD. Don't worry ladies and gentlemen, we haven't broke up yet, and we're still going strong (which is something to thank the Lord for). What actually happened, so follows.
Coming to the library after Chem lab, I was informed by a mutual friend of Ainaa and myself, Jaslyn, that this Chinese Lecturer apparently warned me about having lunch with Ainaa at our cafeteria this afternoon. " Please the your friend not to do it in public anymore, please. People are watching them". What is 'it'?? Well, 'it' was sitting together in public.
Now, this is the part that gets me. We're being watched. The ustaz and ustazah (thats the equivalent of pastors to Muslims) are watching our every move. Personally, thats fine with me. Obviously they're concerned over what I do with Ainaa.
Well, they're not too innocent. You see, those hypocrites are only watching 3 couples. Myself and Ainaa, Jeeva and Liz, and Nathan and Andri. Yup, you've guessed it!! We're all Indians with a Malay gf. Since the Chinese folk here have enough sense to shun the Malay girls they don't get into this sort of thing. Ok, now, the other clincher.
Now, a Malay couple can get away with rape here if they want to. See, they're not as heavily watched as we are. So, there have been cases (notice the s in case's') where condoms were found all over the place where known Malay couples hang out. What happened? Your guess is as good as mine, but sure as hell they weren't expelled.
Why the double standard? Is this what Islam is about?? The literal meaning of the word Islam is Submisson. I guess this is what they're trying to make us do. Submit. What's up with my skin colour to them, I don't know. But they're watching.
I Rather They Just Shove A Leash Up My Ass
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Here's To The First Thousand People
That Shared Tears, Loves, Joys, Sorrows
With undeserving me
God Keep Me Going!!
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Chemistry (SK 027) - A
Mathematics (QS o27) - A
Biology (SB 027) - B!!
Sighs, it should have been an easy A if weren't for that stupid mistake of switching my answers. As the following questions were dependent on the first, I managed to lose 10 WHOLE MARKS on that (10/40 x 100 = 25!!!). Then ended up with a brilliant B. Mum sounds kinda disappointed, and obviously I am too.
Ainaa's pretty depressed. Even though she put a massive amount of effort (I could never match her), she didn't quite get the results she wanted. I'm feeling personally VERY GUILTY. What if it was because of me? That I distracted her too much? Worst of all, I don't even know what I can do to even make her feel better. Nothing I'll say or do will work. Currently, I would say I pretty much suck at being a good bf. Feeling depressed as I love her, and I can stand to see her that way.
God, please make her better.
Happy Valentine.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Why people do this, don't know.. But Here's 50 Random Facts (REALLY RANDOM) * Tabby in Glee*.
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
- face? ( PERPETUALLY SLEEPY LA)
2. Do you like coffee?
~Depends what you define coffee as... Nescafe, COOL!! Asphalt Colombian Expresso.. SOrry!
3. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
~in love, confused, tired, hurt...
4. Do you like anyone? If so, who?
~ermm, a bit obvious on this one.. Ainaa
5. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
- aim ( why is this question even on here??)
6. Tell me about the last dream you
remember having last night?
~no dreams fo a LOOOOONNNNGGGG TIIIMMMMEEE
7. What are you craving right now?
~sudden craving for Wan Tan ( wink wink Jacob) Mee...
8. What are you doing at this moment
yesterday?
~Boring Microscope work, Lab experiments...
9. What comes to mind when I say
cabbage?
~leafy??
10. Would you dance to the taco song?
~ermm, why not??
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
~you think I so free ar??
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or
just lick it?
~both..
18. Do you use smilies?
~not really... emoticons more my thing ( the infamous kick1)
19. Do you own any pets? If so, what
are they?
~Dog- Deco
20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
~Lol, Reshmonu's my Cousin man.. Anyways, Sheena Sherm oso enough Celebs addy.
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
~yums!
22. What song are you listening to
right now?
~Bubbly ( Ainaa's Fave )
23. Do you ever thought that u might be
gay?
~and is there a reason I should??
24. Are your parents strict?
- Lol, most understanding pair in the wide world ( and no, not being sarcastic)
25. Would you go sky diving?
~hell yeah!!
26. Would you go out to eat with
~anyone who's hungry
27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
~unbelivable waste of food??
28. Is there anything sparkly in the
room you're in?
~nope ( dull huh )
30. Do you rent movies often?
~nah, piracy ma.. Rm4 oni wanna rent some more le?
31. Who sits in front of you in your
math class?
~ermm, I'm in front??
34. Can you count backwards from 74?
~should be... 74, 73, 72, 71...
35. Who are you going to be with on
Saturday night?
~hopefully with a good book...
36. Brown or white eggs?
- white!!
38. Ever taken a train?
~how else to get to Singapore on 60 bucks?...
39. Experienced the twin towers
falling in New York?
~Watched the thing LIVE
40. Do you have a mobile phone?
~Necessity of this world? Ainaa I need the smses!!
41. What day of the week is it?
- Wednesday ( feels like Monday )
42. What was your Lunch?
~10.04 am right now..
43. Ever had cream puffs?
~YUM YUM!!
44. What was the last question you
asked?
~Is Chem Friends Nice??
48. What was the last cd you bought?
~Dido- Life for Rent ( Mostly File share lar.. )
49. Panties or Thong? ; Boxers or
Boxer Briefs?
~Boxer Briefs?
50. What is/was your bus number for
school?
~Lol dun remember.. Kindergarden lar...
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
HAPPY CNY PPL!! Pretty Straightforward yea?? Hahahaha!! So, I'm back home safely. Missing Ainaa a lot. Eyes shutting as I write. NEEEEEEEEEEEED SLEEEEEEEEEEEP!!
Seriously, this is the first real post I've done in a long time. Things have gone by so fast that I don't even have time to blog about them (or perhaps its really because I'm plain lazy). Well, I'm back with a new resolve, and back for good ( I hope ). Feel terrible just leaving this blog to rot here actually, but at the same time so malas to blog.. Sighs, why don't people focus on inventing mind controlled computers instead of focusing on cloning tech? Makes all our lives easier. And better, no need to upload photos from Cameras anymore!! Visualize and voilla!!
First ever major fight with my brother. We've never spoken to each other like that before. Understandable why he said such things, but that doesn't give him the license to say that. Not talking to each other at the present, though I would love to. Its just about being the bigger guy I guess, and at the moment I'm feeling pretty small.
Ainaa, the girl that walked right into the section in my heart that God made for her. Feel confused on where to classify her though, she's not much like other Malay people around. She leads a pretty western lifestyle ( violin and ballet, clothings ) but fundamentally very very conservative ( no photos together!! ). Not at all Malay but yet everything. Feeling confused and slightly sorry for myself though, but falling deeper and deeper in love with her each day . Praying hard that God leads her to Him, even though He might not have plans for us to be together. I sure pray He does.
Life=Tiring. Classes, Projects, Lab Reports ( yes, LAB REPORTS ladies and gentlemen ). Quizzes next week to keep me on my wrinkly toes.
Missing Church badly. Missing Christians badly. Relationship with God has been at its strongest though, because here, I'm being challenged everyday. I get through thanks to the prayers pouring in by all my loved ones.
Feel guilty about abandoning friends. Jeremy ( both Malaysian and Singaporean ), Moo, Selwyn ( Christian Lecture mate ). Sigh, talk about my New Year's Resolution of keeping my Priorities Straight!!
I'm going home, soon ( few hours time to be exact ). Mixed feelings.
Happy CNY to ALL..
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