~May Your Light Shine :D~

Sunday, December 09, 2007

I'm here, on the edge of year 2007, looking over at the coming year. I'm unsure how to react to it. On one hand, I look at it with anticipation , but on the other, with plenty of fear. Next year will see me make decisions on what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. Doctor, Dentist, Teacher, Garbage Man, who knows?? The new year is always a new beginning. I haven't been the best of Christians my whole life, but this year really saw me Repainting my Christian Faith. I believe this year's worth of joys, sorrows, tribulations and celebrations taught me more about myself and God then any of the previous others. I want to bring that over into the New Year. Let not the Fire in My Bones be put out O' Lord.

I'm not alone, going into this year. I've got my Family ( Biological and Spiritual ). I've got Church. I've got Friends. I've got Ainaa, I've got GOD. God, you've been good to me. So many people don't have the blessings above, but you gave them to me. I'm so undeserving O'Lord. What am I, that You are mindful of me?

If the year 2008 is anything like this year, I might not survive it. I've lost James, Selvam Periamma (Aunt), and so many others. What if I lose Veron, lose Tabitha, lose Jeremoo, lose my Mum, lose my brothers, my Dad?? Lord, I'm not afraid to walk in the valley of the shadow of Death, but what if my loved ones walk it. I can't bear that.

But So many good things have happened this year too. Payap, Cambodia, getting into the College I'm in, good results, Ainaa, CF at College and so many others. Life is so Beautiful too. It just depends on where you look at. God, thank You for my ability to see that.

I'm not Alone, Take my Hand..

PolarTwilight blogged at 4:39 AM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...