Saturday, November 10, 2007
Man, it's been a long while since I felt this refreshed. I guess this trip put things into perspective for me. It's been a good trip, feel loved again, getting that dying spark back into me. Where am I at?? Why, Singapore of course!! Lolz, today was officially a first 'full' day in this new place ( not counting Stingray Dinner with Danny of course )!! It's Super, Super, SUPER fun with this guys ( + 2 girls ). Well starting off my Adventure, I make my way to Paya Lebar MRT ( Passing Jia Ni's house on the way ). First sight of MRTs, and its not too different from the LRTs back home, but they've got WAY much more seating places though. Anyways, today's plan was to meet Veron + Jeremoo at the station at 1230. Wells, the original plab was to meet at 1330, so when Veron didn't show up after an hour, I didn't think much of it. Wells, when hasn't turned up after 2, now that's time to panic!! So at 1430, I set off looking for a money changer ( mind you, didn't have a single Singaporean cent to Spend ). People, if you've never travelled without money, please DON'T TRY IT. Trust me, it gets you STRANDED. Wells, then after wandering wandering wandering, I finally bump into a God Given Money Changer, and get my first Singaporean notes ( whoopie!! ). Then call up Veron + Gang, find out they're in Bugis, a mere 4 stations away. 3 hours gone.. Earlier, I was actually afraid that Veron met in an accident on the way to pick me!! Oh well, I see her, safe and sound, with Moo, and thats well worth 3 hours wait. Then 1st appearence of Evan in my life, a real shocker!! Lolz, creep up behind me and scare me, what a way to greet poor tourists!! Wells, she's funness Incarnate, and all 4 of us went to get my 1st Neoprints ( ever!! ). Pretty good pictures, a and love the ones I have. Neoprints are such a bonding experience, watching Evan and Veron tap away on those comp screens with the pens was hillarious!! Ahh, then Danny and Josh pop by, making us a sixsome. Went to MoS Burger, pretty cool place.. Hang out for around 2 hours, talking away, Super Super, SUPER nice!! Anyways, after that went for POOL, and guess what? I'm CMI at pool!! Josh on the other hand, super good. Learnt a new way of playing, cut throat, taught personally by Danny. Then met Daniel for chicken rice dinner, and then hung out at Evan's school! Gosh, you'll never find a place like that in M'sia!! Then, purposely went back from there by bus instead of MRT ( it takes an extra 45 mins ) to Danny's place. Had a heart warming chat, I miss doing such things. ( Will blog abt SoyMilk Cell soon!!)
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
It's been refreshing to be back home and to be able to deeply think about the real mess I've made of myself over the past 6 months, especially in college. Being there, you really gte plenty of freedom to do what you want to do, especially with my parents being 5 hours away from wrangling my neck. Bottomline, I've been distracted. Not only am I facing massive problems with studies, but I'm feeling lukewarm towards God right now. I feel its better to be back struggling with porn, than to lose my first love, Jesus. At least when you're fighting something, you feel God's LOVE more and more. But what if it doesn't prick your heart anymore?? What if your heart grows Stone Cold, and you incapable of loving God anymore. Because (Loving God= Loving People as they are), I'm losing my spark. I always believed that the thing that mades me different from the world, is that I love everyone, and try to see always the best in them. But now, I become, impatient, irritable, angry, foul mouthed. And I tried to remedy it. Most people would try prayer and forgiveness, but I forgot. You see, I became rapidly popular among the college community, especially among the girls, and I admit, it really got to my head. I don't know why, but I just went after every girl I could. So unlike my old self. Terrible me. I think I should admit I went after almost 6 or 7 girls in these months, so I should feel a little guilty about it. Undoubtably, I forsook my studies. I thought I could mug close to the exams and everything would be alright. Well, I was stupid. Even during study week, I played around and now I'm regretting it. Chemistry is Doomed, and Math probabaly as well. God saved my neck in Bio. Now, I probably flunked my first Semester, and if I do, its curtains for my Medical dreams. The extent of the damage will only be known on Dec 3. God help me!! I'm sorry I didn't come to you when I should have, I was proud, so proud. I thought I could fix it myself, while I put You in the back seat. Now I've driven myself into the middle of nowhere. Please God, I'm not even worthy of it, but help clean this mess for me God. Amen. (Typical behaviour of people, the Search for something more makes someone put God behind, and think they're the best.)
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