Thursday, June 28, 2007
Happy 60th to me!!! (and thats for the post NOT the age!!). Good to see my blog hasn't died out in almost 2 and a 1/2 years of operation, though many a time I wanted to shift addresses. Get a clean start, as they say. Wells, I'm having a real roller coaster ride here, and it's pretty scary, to say the least.
Being in college, isn't the nicest thing in the world. Sure you've got the freedom, and the friends, and the girls, but wells, there's a search for something more. Something more.. Godly.. In the middle of nowhere, surrounded by heaps and heaps of musilms, ironically I'm closest to God. God provides, as we all know. It's not in God's nature not to take good care of His people. The Shepard that leaves the 99 sheep behind and goes looking for the one lost one. Oh, the Love that will not let me go.
I've accidentally left my Bible in my home, and I'm spiritually starving. It's really amazing, and how much I'm starting to hunger for the Milk of The Word. I wouldn't have given a second thought about not reading the Bible in the past, but now, I'm somehow driven to want to read it?! God works in mysterious ways. I've been trying to keep up a good prayer life, but often times just 'can't find the time'. I'm being stupid here. How can I not find the time for the One that made time itself?? The One who puts my every breath in me? God help me.
People have been wanting to sleep with me. Wowzers, that came as a surprise. With my background in Porn, do not doubt that I've been tempted sorely. But Jesus, He's still saving me. Helping me through my weakness. Even though I walk in the Valley of the Shadow of Death, I shall fear no evil. No Evil at all. I'm glad I'm part of 1234, it's been keeping me healthy and strong.
Speaking of 1234, I have to mention Jeremoo. He's a flawed guy, as we all are. He combats many a sin, and so do I. Through God, he starts 1234, I barely have the strength to nod to join him. He's getting stronger, and if God helps me, I'll get stronger too. Jeremoo, I'm thankful for you. Thank you for Streams in the Desert, it keeps me fed Spiritually for now. I'm getting weary of running, but Christian brothers and sisters are keeping me up and running. Running, till I meet James at the end of my race.
Veron, I haven't finished your song. Must use the S word here, SORRY!! Man, I've been keeping a good record of letting people down. First Jun Ai, and now Veron.. Haiz, bad bad Naveen. I wish I really could find the time, but exams and all, wowzers they're pushing me heaps. I think I'll sit down this weekend and do it.
By the way, I've been blessed with 3 good Christians here. Mr David, Miss Jan, both my lecturers, Selwin, and Shawn, newfound Christian Buddies. Mr David has been my complaint post, every single thing I'll go to him. Wonder when he's going to get tired of it, but he never seems to. He seems even more delighted than I do bug him. My English Lecturer, Miss Jan however, likes to bully whatever Christians she can find. We had a wonderful dinner cum Fellowship last Monday, and the little CF IS GOING STRONG thanks to your prayers!!
Acedmic point of View, no probs, almost aceing everything thanks to God's good Graces.. Mum seems to think I'm lazy, and gave Khuen Foong (J Joy's Husband, and therefore Jun Ai's Bro-In Law), ironically a doctor, the power to spank me raw. So much for Family Love eh??
Friday, June 15, 2007
Strike the Shepherd and the Sheep will be scattered.. Thats what Satan did with Jesus, but Jesus, against the script, rose up to save us all.. But now, when Satan strikes James, where do we go from here??
Yes, we've lost a brother. James was taken around 11.10 am this morning. There was a test done to see whether he was brain dead, and the results came back positive, both times. So this morning, Uncle William, Aunty Cindy, and family, took the decision to pull the plug on James' life support. And God, loving him, took him away, instead of letting him suffer on this earth. I respect that God, but somehow I feel You made a mistake.
James was a strong, good boy. A fantastic son to his family, a phenomenal brother to his 4 siblings, and someone who had a passion and zeal to work hard and harder for God. I remember fondly as he was the one who always took the lead during tracting for Living Skills classes. When we both went out, I was often the one shaking in fear. he just marched up to people and handed out tracts and stuff. Wow right?? A great guy that has a better heart. How blessed to know him, though he wasn't long here.
These few months, God's biggest gift to me was to hang out with James. Since Cambodia, James was on FIRE!! He was a great singer, and the best part was always how he sang with full heart, every single time. It was just, wow.. He's been such an excellent co-worker in Christ, and it's been such a joy and a honour to work with this brother. We've had so many things planned out for the youth in Seremban. Oh Brother, who will now teach the Songs we've learnt. Who will watch over the Choir, Who will watch with pride as the Youth grow in maturity?? Who will care for the flock?? When will I ever watch you preach?? Or lead Sunday singing.. Could you hear me when I said I'm so proud of you. Could you hear it, when the Youth sat by your bedside and whispered encouragement in your ears, reminding you of who you have to be, thing things you have to do?? Did you know the Singaporeans came with tears and grief to your bedside, that they prayed with Sweat and Tears, just as the Seremban Youth did?
In death, James is Victorious. How in a few days, so many plans have been accomplished. SOYMILK have been to Seremban to see the youth. The seeds of a international Cell group have been sown. The Youth are fired, to live up to you and the legacy you've left us. How you've changed the hearts of people my brother.. I will praise God for all this. I know in heaven, I'll see you someday. But not now. Wait for me my brother, for I will come soon.. After all, what is lie, but the morning mist?? All life is borrowed, we have to give it back someday.
In my mind, I cry "LORD I DEFY YOU". In my heart, I know "Lord has given and the Lord has taken away, the Name of the Lord be praised!!" God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. Oh Satan , my old master and friend. How you make us grieve.. Yet, with God's power, I defy YOU!! You can strike every shepherd on the face of the Earth, yet, in their stead, God will provide a 1000 more. In the Grace of God, James beat you!! Lord hear me!! Pslams 42!! I PRAISE YOU LORD, I PRAISE YOU!!!
I traveled from my college yesterday to see how James is holding up. I didn't really believe what my mum told me because I thought she hid some details from me, I could feel it in her voice. it's normal, doesn't want me to worry too much. So I was down in Seremban yesterday and I saw first hand what's happening to James.
It's a bit worrisome to see him in such a state. He's been scheduled for surgery, but they can't do it because his blood pressure was fluctuating, they've lined him up for a scan to see whether he's brain dead, but they can't do that either because his sodium levels are too high. So, practically, the doctors are doing, and can do, nothing. But James' parents are taking him out for a 2nd opinion, just to be sure of anything.
James isn't doing too well, his heart is at 38% efficiency it's pretty beaten up as well. His left lung has a puncture, he's broken his right leg, his skull is fractured, and pieces of bone lie all over his brain. His face is a bit swelled up, because of the fluid buildup an brain swelling. But in spite of all that bleakness, there's a lot of hope.
James is a strong, good boy, and the Lord is with him. He's managed to wriggle his toes, showing he's not brain dead. Though he's unable to speak or respond in any way, we know he can hear us, and the youth sit around his bed daily, and whisper encouragement. We remind him of all the things left to do, our football match with PJ youths, the DOTA games we've yet to play, the football he loves so much. ( I can't go on, will do, when I get stronger )
Friday, June 01, 2007
Heys, This is my 1st post from COLLEGE!! I'm hating it, everything's s frantic, crazy, super speed, etc etc.. I came in on the 2nd intake and missed a week's worth of lectures!! And wow, they've sped away.. Bio with one Chapter Head Start, and other subjects that are in the realm of 'No way I'll be able to catch up'. Yet, catch up I must, and God it's hard.. But I know God's with me, and well, If God's with me, Who/What could stand against me?? Sharing a room with 3 Malay guys. Great Roomies, and Good Buddies. Have Lectures and Tutorials From 8am-5pm daily, and then laze around till bed time (around 12am/1am). Oh yeah, Have a small CF starting up too!! So excited abt it.. At the moment its just me and my English Lecturer, but I'm sure we could rope in more people with a little effort. Pray for me guys.. Here's the perfect thing to describe this journey here:
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I'm learning how to fly, but I promise I'll never forget my origins, the places I'm from, the ones I love, and the ones I care for.. Shout out to my Family, Soymilk, Veron, Sheena, Shermaine, Jia Ni, TABBY TABS, Daniel, JereMOO, Biskit, Reagan ,YM Cass, Charlotte, S'ban Youth, Akiko, Abby, Lisa, Titan, WM Youth Mag and Daniel Ong!!! Miss you guys!!! Miss going to Church!!!
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