Tuesday, March 28, 2006
One day I decided to quit...I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God. "God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?
"His answer surprised me..."Look around", He said. "Do you see the fernand the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied."When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care ofthem. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the
bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
" He said. "In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from thebamboo seed. I would not quit."He said."Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.
Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."He said to me."Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots?" "I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others."He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful." "Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?" I asked."How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return."As high as it can?" I questioned
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
He will never give up on you.Never regret a day in your life.Good days give you happiness; bad days give you experiences;
both are essential to life.....
Made a wish, I can dream
I can be what I want to be
Not afraid to live life
And fulfil my fantasies
I learnt a lot of tricks to help me live my life
You helped me find my paradise
When you came, you were like
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel
I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far
Reaching out, for new heights
You inspired me to try
Felt the magic inside
And I felt that I could fly
I'm looking at the world in an optimistic light
You made me appreciate my life
'Cos when you came you were like
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining starSunshine
Making me feel likeI'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far
You are the calm
I am the storm
You are the breeze that carries me on
When I set adrift
You anchor me
You're there for me
Sunshine (oh yeah)
That's what you are
My shining starSunshine
Making me feel
I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star(Sunshine)
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
SunshineMy star, my star..
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Dear God,
I'm angry and dissapointed with You right now. I know I have no right to question Your Will, and Plans Lord, but you've let me down Dear Lord. God, why did it have to go all over again. Getting hit by a 16-wheeler when you're on a motorbike is no way to leave this earth, Lord. just think about it, a few months more and she would be sitting for her SPM already Lord. But (forgive me Lord) I'm really dissapointed because You (for once) didn't answer my prayer Lord. You know how I ask You to keep my Family, Friends and Church Members safe Lord, but why did You choose not to answer this one Lord. Its really not fair God. You took Ain at a time when I was just starting to get over Shuba and Kalai's passing away Lord. You took a 17 year old girl Lord, someone who didn't know Christ the way we Christians do, someone so Bright, Charming, and Wonderful. I could go on asking why forever Lord, but I know, at the end of the day, You've got my best intersets at heart Lord. But Lord, please Lord, please don't take away someone who is closer to me than Ain. Please don't take away someone who is so dear to me Lord, My Mum, Dad, Brothers and family, people like Junny, Michelle, David and friends, people like Uncle Ken, Chong Fatt, Aunty Esther and other people in the Church. Lord, please Lord, and you know deep down Lord, that I would Die for these people. Lord, keep them safe and happy, wherever they may be Lord. I trust You, Depend on You and Survive on You Lord.....
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Hmm... It's funny how God sometimes decides to answer your prayers by giving you exactly what you want, but not exactly what you've expectedto get. For instance, I was technically crying out to God for relief beacuse I was so bogged down with Exams and Co-Curricular work, and really frustrated and irrirated because I didn't get it. But God, in His own time (as He usually does) answered my prayers by sending me a whole week of holidays to relax. Now, I'm not being ungrateful, but just plain truthful when I say that I'm getting really bored after just 2 days into it. Hmm, in hindsight, I was really, really (and I Mean REALLY) looking forward to it 'cause of the activties I had lined up ( notice the usage of the word lined ).
Friday, March 10, 2006
Heya everyone, I thought I would be closing my blog soon but after thinking about it for a while, I decided..... NO WAY!!! How could I even think of it! Must have got some crazy ideas that day.
Anyways, this last two weeks (on which I haven't written a single post *gasp) have been jammed packed like crazy. Well, just to cut a long story short, The Drama Team beat Taman Indah this year to become District CHAMPIONS (I told you you should have joined, Michelle). Debate though, no that good (I hereby decline to comment)... While Quiz is Still UNKNOWN?? *lol lol*. Quiz results should be out after the holidays ( Jun says Whats the difference?? *lol*) .
But as if these competitions were not enough, I had to sit for an entire weeks worth of exams! Aiiyo, can't the school exempt someone 'yang telah mengharumkan nama sekolah di arena dunia?' Oops, I mean daerah. Anyways, I've done them and got the results back already, not half bad actually.
I've got a bit more crazy than usual and in my usual craziness, I've also joined the School Choir. Its really good but the songs are really dry and boring. The teacher, Madam Tan also metioned that I'm not singing from my tummy. Hmm, I wonder how to do that? Got to work on it I suppose?? Also, I pulled out of the MHF Junior League Hockey Squad (much to the teachers frustration, but hey, Its either SPM or hockey.) Also joining the table tennis team I suppose. Gotta practice di...
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